What am I doing

Saturday of the Third Week of Advent

Feast of St. Thomas

I lift up my eyes to the hills;

  from where is my help to come?

My help comes from the Lord,

  the maker of heaven and earth.

Psalm 121: 1-2

“What am I doing,” I whisper to myself in the pre-dawn. Having opened my laptop to complete a task, I immediately became distracted by the number of open files on my desktop and after taking care of a couple of them I can no longer remember what it was that I wanted to do.

What am I doing? This is probably an apt refrain as I head into the final week of Advent, which, in reality, is not a week but a few days. As the morning light increases, the angel on top of our family creche is revealed along with a backdrop of snow-covered trees that I had not expected. I didn’t know that yesterday’s sleet had become more substantial overnight.

What am I doing? What is God doing, is perhaps the better question. However else I spend these last few days of this season of expectation, I am reminded that I need to keep my attention focused on the Holy One. Who is ever active, always present, continuously redeeming heaven and earth.